So this weekend I proposed! (finally), to my beautiful girlfriend, Meaghen, of 5 years. I was a loss for words, literally.
My sister, Sharon, took out Meaghen to distract her while my friend and photographer helped me set up at our crib. We were thinking of where he could hide. We tried the shower, but would be too difficult to pop out of there and capture our special moment. We decided the pantry would be the most efficient spot. He hid in the pantry and practiced sliding out and snapping the pic. He nailed it!
I wasn’t nervous until about an hour before. I was sweating! Had to take off my shirt while Skye was helping me on what to say. I started having an anxiety attack LOL
When Meaghen walked in she saw the rose petals on the ground, looked at me and said “What’s happening here?”
The plan was that I was going to throw her off by saying “Babe I fucked up” then get on my knee and speak from the heart.
What actually happened: I kept saying “I fucked up. I fucked up.” And repeated that over and over. And over. No other words came out LOL I got on my knee, opened the box and looked at her. I don’t even remember asking her. She said yes and that was it!
I keep replaying that in my head and beat myself up for not saying what I wanted to say but it happened exactly as it should. And for that I’m grateful!
It’s crazy to think that we met each other in high school 19 years ago. We connected 5 years ago and history was made. I always had a crush on her, never thinking I had a chance. And here we are today, engaged. So truly blessed and grateful!
That goes to show you that you really never know how things will end up, where you will be in your life and the people surrounding you. Just got to put in work for yourself, heal within, be kind, help others, believe in yourself and have FAITH. Things never seem to end up the way you expect them to be, but things just seem to work out in the way they are supposed to.
I realize now that the closest people to you shape who you become. So I’ve made it a point to ONLY surround myself with those who make me better. Meaghen being one of them.
My journey to self discovery, self help and really just trying to find happiness began 2-3 years into our relationship. She was there from the beginning. I was in a dark place mentally before we met. But she saw the real me, the kind happy person, behind all the pain.
And for that I’m forever grateful. She makes me a better person. Her kind heart, her caring nature and her beautiful soul (to just name a few) is why I want to spend the rest of my life with her.
I love you.